Psalm 139: 1-6
“1 O LORD, you have searched me and you know me. 2You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. 3You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. 4Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD. 5You hem me in -- behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me. 6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.”
David is speaking to God from a familiar place.
“God you have searched me and you know me”
I find myself being here in my gratefulness. Reflecting on my countless encounters with grace and mercy I always say "God you know my heart". Those speechless moments as I laid at the feet of God were not senseless. God has felt every moment of joy and sorrow with us. He knew we would disappoint him ahead of time. In the break of an identify crisis he has still given us an identity in him.
Hem means to secure something. We walk with a superficial covering daily. There are weapons forming but cannot proser because of our shield and protection. He knows the true desires of our heart yet, he is still protecting us. Those things we thought would break us only touched the surface because he was there.
Psalm139 : 7-16
7Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? 8If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. 9If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, 10even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. 11If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me," 12even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.
13For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. 14I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. 15My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, 16your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. 14I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;your works are wonderful,I know that full well.”
YOU ARE THERE! This is the confirmation I needed! God has shined light during my darkest days. God, you were there during my darkest days. You were the light in my darkness. You were there!! David is speaking about the presence of God being everywhere.
“If I make my bed in the depths, you are there”
I’ve been here before too. Sinning is intentional... Okay, now since that’s clear let's talk. There have been times that many of us choose conviction over the cross. We’ve been guilty of making our bed in the depths, But God was there. Now we’ve been delivered from that bed and were able to carry it.
Praise is always in order. David has spoken about his darkest moments and has now transitioned into praise. Mind play! Allow your season to change and take your faith with you. Sometimes the light will shine from your mouth. David acknowledged his darkness and he began to speak life. He began to speak of the power of God and it changed his posture. Allow your faith to minister to your faith. Thinking that God is good won’t save you. Speak it until your spirit reacts. Speak it until you see it! Davids's faith did not allow him to dwell in his darkness.
You were called to survive some things
You were made to proclaim the glory of the Lord.
You were built for this. This is personal.
God, I thank you for being there through everything. I thank you for being there when I needed you the most. Thank you for never leaving me just as you promised. I wanted to give up you know I did. I wanted to be so mad at you God but you were there. Thank you for staying quiet long enough for me to seek you. You brought me to it and you walked through it with me. Thank you for being a shield of protection even from myself. Most of all, thank you for giving me everlasting praise … experienced packed praise. You gave me intentional praise.